WOW... I just realized how bad I have been at blogging. I used to use this as an outlet... it helped me to express things that were so painful it was often times hard to find the right words. I think after going through all of that I have just began to reclose my doors... build up my walls and try to go through the motions of life without really "feeling" anything. I don't really know how to explain it other than pretty much a numbness. The only feeling I think I have felt in a while is "anger" when it really felt like a feeling if that makes sense.
I think I may need to start re-evaluating what is going on with me and figure out an outlet so that I can begin to be me again. I just simply shut everyone out... I notice when the phone rings I don't really want to talk... I'd just as soon just be with me... in my own little corner of the world.
I guess I will sort through this all...
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