Expressing Gratitude

It hasn't been all to often this year I have express gratitude for anything. I have been all too caught up in my world of emptiness and loss...

I wanted to take a moment to express my gratitude. I am extremely grateful for my support system... to my amazing husband, I only wish I could go back in time now I know how it feels and be more supportive. To my family who despite all of the ups and downs that have been part of this year... thank you for all you do. To my friends whom have put up with my moodiness and general grumpy attitude... I do know with time this aspect of grieving will come to an end.

I feel so blessed to have had the father figures in my life that I did. I feel fortunate to have been taken in as part of Deven's family and loved as if I was a daughter. For my amazing father whom I aspire to be more like... a day doesn't go past without a thought of him in my mind...

As the holidays approach the loss feels more real... so many traditions involved my Dad as the "heart"...

Despite the ups and downs and I grateful for all of the above and more... for these are the people and things that mold me into the person I am today...

Happy Thanksgiving (a few days late)!

Going through the motions...

Not sure what is up with me lately but I feel like I am not really here and my body is just going through motions. I hope I snap out of it soon!

Happy Birthday to my "other" Dad!

Happy Birthday Joe! It is hard to believe it has been 9 years since you passed away! I think of you often... especially when planning family trips. I remember how you loved to plan things on the "fly" and we'd have to get work off for the next week to head on some adventure you had planned. I miss your infectious laugh... your zest for life.

You left a beautiful legacy behind... I am so grateful I had an opportunity to call you "Dad"... thanks for being the wonderful man you are...

Love you... and happy birthday!